I find myself doing things that I don’t consider good for myself and my body, but somehow I end up doing them anyway. I also know that if done in moderation – it’s ok. And yes, I’m talking about food and drinks. Well, it is already in a much healthier proportion and I feel much better, but why do it anyway? Why not feel really good all the time. Why do I do all those unhealthy things and make me feel good only temporarily?
Maybe I judge myself too much.
Why do I feel guilty when I don’t exercise daily and why the hell don’t I find time? Why do I find excuses (or at least that’s what I think I do) instead of just exercising for even half an hour and feel much better already?
Why do I feel stuck again? I don’t feel like doing anything? At least today and right now. I spent the Saturday in bed. Like last Saturday. Why do I feel guilty for taking this time for doing nothing? I do feel like doing something nice tomorrow, tho. I judge myself too much.
I feel like I’m wasting my time but right now (today) and I had the time to think about it.
I’ve been really busy recently. Now it’s ok to rest, I guess.
I want to read. I want to write. I want to do yoga. I want to run. I want to laugh. I want to make people happy. I want to play the guitar.
It really sucks when you feel used. I thought I was helping a friend few months ago… turns out he was stabbing me in the back and was lying to me.