Hmm
I found another vicious circle or loop that I am reinforcing. A pendulum if you will. Samsara if you will.
Here’s how it goes.
- I think of something new I want to do (no matter the size)
- I swiftly estimate the effort
- if it’s hard to do, needs multiple hours, tools or pain involved – give up, get frustrated.
- if it’s easy to do – why do it then- give up, get frustrated.
- No result, end up in frustration
This is not in all cases as you can imaging, since if it was, I’d never get anything done.
What’s important to realize here for myself is the following
If I focus on the frustration – I keep on being frustrated.
And then I relate the emotion of frustration with the wishlist items themselves. Which ruins the items for future reassessment. You how that’s fucked?
See, that doesn’t work when you are in planning mode. That is a rookie mistake and I always start experiencing the doing before I started doing it.
If I pause after I made an assessment, I have a choice.
Now I can choose not to do something and I can move on with a smile.
What I didn’t realize til now is that I need to stop between assessment and choice. I somehow start the assessment as if I’ve already started doing the action.
It’s like squeezing in a timeout before emotional response kicks in. Giving myself time to make the choice.
I’m happy about that realization.
There’s a lot to unpack here, but I’m going to leave it like that for now. Let it sink in a bit better.
? I thank myself today for this realization. ?